Whoa!!!
Okay.. so the cod liver oil seems to be working.. Aunty red is here!! And without prompting!!
I will have to see if it's consistent though.. let's just see what's gonna happen in 3 months time.
I've been reading on fatty acid ratios and it's effect on our body. I wish I could sit down and write it all down... but time is a luxury these days!! I need to work on my time management so that I can fit in everything that I need to do. As it is right now, I am quite scattered. I love this messiness and a bit of chaos is always good.. hehehe.. life shouldn't be too sterile..but I admit, I could be a bit more efficient.
Ah, nice nice...now back to work...
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Pre-occupied
Running programme is going fine.. I clocked 19m 30s for 2 km on the threadmill. However I think I overdid it. Fell sick earlier last week and went back on full swing without so much of a rest in between. And it's causing me so much lethargy right now which isn't great since I need my brain to be fully switched-on this weekend.. aaarrghh!!!
Let's hope this chamomile tea works.. brain, please come back.
*****
As I said, I had a slight fever last Monday. Went to the Dr to get it checked. If there's one thing that irked me it's doctors who just assume things... grrr. Without so much as checking my background and medical history, she 'observed' the fever, coughing, lethargy and suggested that it could be pregnancy... hahahahah!!! I guess any 29 year old woman with a bit of fever and lethargy must be pregnant eh? Shouldn't you at least ask when was my last period before coming to that deduction? Or if I was married or sexually active, at least? Sighs...
So she finally asked when my last menses was.. so yeah, I told her that Aunty Red's last visit was in , like, 2007? And her eyes popped open... "that long?!???" I fought the tendency to roll my eyes. Her next question was even sillier.."So how many children do you have?" This time I just let my eyes roll.. "I'm not married Doc". I thought she blushed a little. Probably she just realized she's not exactly psychic and that they taught history-taking in med school for a reason.. sighs..
She explained that she'll prescribe some meds to treat the symptoms.. and then went on to probe about my condition. She asked if I was taking any medication or if I had done any tests for my amenorrhea. So I gave her a brief explanation on all those tests and pills I took for PCOS and the fact that I had defaulted from all of that and is current trying to control it naturally. And again, doctor dearest made some 'intuitive' deductions that must have come naturally to all healers, muggles and wizards alike :P ... First she smirked at my 'layman's' attempt to explain my condition. Next, she said that I was not given metformin for diabetes (uhuh, and wasn't that what I just told you, Dr??). Then she went on to say that I can't just simply start exercising and go on a diet and all.'.coz it's not going to work, you can't change 29 years of habit in a day...you can't simply start running blablabla... you can't suddenly be active after being sedentary..yadayadayada'...Oh dear, I guess her crystal ball told her that I was a couch potato whose idea of exercise was flipping channels on the remote control..or rolling my eyes every now and then.
And then came the ultimatum, in her best angel voice she told me that she could help me. There are medications to help me lose all these fats and whatnots.. she could put me on burners and appetite supressors.. but 'only when you are ready *angelic smile- halo shining bright* ' Aaarrghhh... I guess at that point, I've had enough. I just told her that I need to go back and rest. She told me to think of her suggestion. I said, "Yea, ok, maybe. Are you gonna give me MC for today?.... Thank you. "
I don't have anything against doctors.. but this particular breed of 'clairvoyant' doctors really get on my nerves.
*********
However, she was right on one account. That the best prescription for PCOS is to lose weight and exercise. PCOS is a condition caused by hormonal imbalance. If you are a 90 kg person whose ideal weight should be around 70kg, your body might not be making enough hormones to support the excess bodily processes, hence the imbalance. This said, it doesn't affect all overweight person. Genetic predisposition is also a factor.
Facts aside, I know that this is true. 10 years ago, when I was away for matriculations, I lost a lot of weight. After losing about 5-10% of my body weight, my period came again. Not regular though, but it still came without having to be probed with OCPs. And then again in 2005, when I started exercising and lost about 5% of my body weight, it came again.
However, I suspect that losing weight alone isn't going to do the magic. The right diet has a lot to do with it. Reminiscing on those times when Aunty Red came visiting without being asked, if I remembered correctly, my food intake consisted mostly of fish, seafood and natural fibres. So I am now experimenting on Cod Liver Oil since last Tuesday. It contains Omega 3 fatty acids, DHA and EPA which helps to combat insuline resistance and helps in glycogen storage. Apart from that it is said to benefit the cardiovascular system.
So we'll see how this one goes...
******
Alright, I need to get back to work.. brain brain please come back!!
Let's hope this chamomile tea works.. brain, please come back.
*****
As I said, I had a slight fever last Monday. Went to the Dr to get it checked. If there's one thing that irked me it's doctors who just assume things... grrr. Without so much as checking my background and medical history, she 'observed' the fever, coughing, lethargy and suggested that it could be pregnancy... hahahahah!!! I guess any 29 year old woman with a bit of fever and lethargy must be pregnant eh? Shouldn't you at least ask when was my last period before coming to that deduction? Or if I was married or sexually active, at least? Sighs...
So she finally asked when my last menses was.. so yeah, I told her that Aunty Red's last visit was in , like, 2007? And her eyes popped open... "that long?!???" I fought the tendency to roll my eyes. Her next question was even sillier.."So how many children do you have?" This time I just let my eyes roll.. "I'm not married Doc". I thought she blushed a little. Probably she just realized she's not exactly psychic and that they taught history-taking in med school for a reason.. sighs..
She explained that she'll prescribe some meds to treat the symptoms.. and then went on to probe about my condition. She asked if I was taking any medication or if I had done any tests for my amenorrhea. So I gave her a brief explanation on all those tests and pills I took for PCOS and the fact that I had defaulted from all of that and is current trying to control it naturally. And again, doctor dearest made some 'intuitive' deductions that must have come naturally to all healers, muggles and wizards alike :P ... First she smirked at my 'layman's' attempt to explain my condition. Next, she said that I was not given metformin for diabetes (uhuh, and wasn't that what I just told you, Dr??). Then she went on to say that I can't just simply start exercising and go on a diet and all.'.coz it's not going to work, you can't change 29 years of habit in a day...you can't simply start running blablabla... you can't suddenly be active after being sedentary..yadayadayada'...Oh dear, I guess her crystal ball told her that I was a couch potato whose idea of exercise was flipping channels on the remote control..or rolling my eyes every now and then.
And then came the ultimatum, in her best angel voice she told me that she could help me. There are medications to help me lose all these fats and whatnots.. she could put me on burners and appetite supressors.. but 'only when you are ready *angelic smile- halo shining bright* ' Aaarrghhh... I guess at that point, I've had enough. I just told her that I need to go back and rest. She told me to think of her suggestion. I said, "Yea, ok, maybe. Are you gonna give me MC for today?.... Thank you. "
I don't have anything against doctors.. but this particular breed of 'clairvoyant' doctors really get on my nerves.
*********
However, she was right on one account. That the best prescription for PCOS is to lose weight and exercise. PCOS is a condition caused by hormonal imbalance. If you are a 90 kg person whose ideal weight should be around 70kg, your body might not be making enough hormones to support the excess bodily processes, hence the imbalance. This said, it doesn't affect all overweight person. Genetic predisposition is also a factor.
Facts aside, I know that this is true. 10 years ago, when I was away for matriculations, I lost a lot of weight. After losing about 5-10% of my body weight, my period came again. Not regular though, but it still came without having to be probed with OCPs. And then again in 2005, when I started exercising and lost about 5% of my body weight, it came again.
However, I suspect that losing weight alone isn't going to do the magic. The right diet has a lot to do with it. Reminiscing on those times when Aunty Red came visiting without being asked, if I remembered correctly, my food intake consisted mostly of fish, seafood and natural fibres. So I am now experimenting on Cod Liver Oil since last Tuesday. It contains Omega 3 fatty acids, DHA and EPA which helps to combat insuline resistance and helps in glycogen storage. Apart from that it is said to benefit the cardiovascular system.
So we'll see how this one goes...
******
Alright, I need to get back to work.. brain brain please come back!!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
M Revived
Oh wow!
I find it weird how some things can so persistently resurface over and over again. Lol! That's what happens when you try to runaway from unfinished businesses. Truth is, you can't. It will find you, no matter what, no matter how, no matter where. Life's funny like that. And you know, it's not so bad. It's just a path you need to go through.
BUT I can't say that the journey has not been interesting so far. It's all about self-discovery or rediscovery.. however you may choose to see it.
So within the span of the past few months I..
* have increasingly been enjoying my work.... things are going a-okay. I am completely grateful.. It shows that sometimes, you need to surrender to win. :D
* took care of some matters of the heart.. rather heartlessly. Letting go takes love.
* put a check on one of my need-to-do list- I'm officially a PADI certified open water diver now!!! Yeay me! :D
* started dancing again.. every Tuesday with my officemates... hahaha!! They want to call it a class, but I'd rather term it as a chill-out hafla. A time for us ladies to let loose and shimmy our workstress away.
* realized again and again how lucky I am to have loving and caring family and friends..
All in all.. I feel blessed:D
So after all of that.. I find my true challenges staring straight at me, with that 'so-are-you-ready-now' kind of look. Lol! So yeah, they haven't been totally abandoned.. but I admit it was going slow.
1. The health project: the reason why this blog is created in the first place.
I have decided that I am not going to set a timeline or deadline to a weight target. It is just an indicator to how much I have progressed. The only concern I have with regards to the scales, is to be within the healthy range. I realized that the number doesn't bother me anymore. It doesn't mean that I am not going to weigh myself from time-to-time.. but like I said, it's not central. So no more targetting to lose so and so kg by so and so date.. It will go down inevitably..:D
What I want to concentrate on is my fitness level, as well as my blood pressure reading. Ultimately, this will all go to controlling my PCOS problem which is the actual challenge. The running target is still on though. I still am targetting to run the whole of 3km without stopping. I have started running again since the past 2 days.. at the office gym *sheepish grin* I feel like I sold-out..but it's a practical solution.. self-reminder: run outside on weekends!
Eating right is another target.. so that too will take center stage from now onwards. Proud to say that the past month, I didn't eat out so much. Mostly home-cooked meals ... heheh! Good for the body and also easy on my bank account :D
2. Financial health: it's getting better now.. but still lots of self-education and self-discipline needed. Hahah!
3. The on-going, never-ending MSc. : It's been 3 years!!! Need I say more?
Those are the 3 main things that this blog will try to address. So perhaps.. besides the original Vanishing Act mission, there would be some other stuff on this blog , if time permits.. lol!
I find it weird how some things can so persistently resurface over and over again. Lol! That's what happens when you try to runaway from unfinished businesses. Truth is, you can't. It will find you, no matter what, no matter how, no matter where. Life's funny like that. And you know, it's not so bad. It's just a path you need to go through.
BUT I can't say that the journey has not been interesting so far. It's all about self-discovery or rediscovery.. however you may choose to see it.
So within the span of the past few months I..
* have increasingly been enjoying my work.... things are going a-okay. I am completely grateful.. It shows that sometimes, you need to surrender to win. :D
* took care of some matters of the heart.. rather heartlessly. Letting go takes love.
* put a check on one of my need-to-do list- I'm officially a PADI certified open water diver now!!! Yeay me! :D
* started dancing again.. every Tuesday with my officemates... hahaha!! They want to call it a class, but I'd rather term it as a chill-out hafla. A time for us ladies to let loose and shimmy our workstress away.
* realized again and again how lucky I am to have loving and caring family and friends..
All in all.. I feel blessed:D
So after all of that.. I find my true challenges staring straight at me, with that 'so-are-you-ready-now' kind of look. Lol! So yeah, they haven't been totally abandoned.. but I admit it was going slow.
1. The health project: the reason why this blog is created in the first place.
I have decided that I am not going to set a timeline or deadline to a weight target. It is just an indicator to how much I have progressed. The only concern I have with regards to the scales, is to be within the healthy range. I realized that the number doesn't bother me anymore. It doesn't mean that I am not going to weigh myself from time-to-time.. but like I said, it's not central. So no more targetting to lose so and so kg by so and so date.. It will go down inevitably..:D
What I want to concentrate on is my fitness level, as well as my blood pressure reading. Ultimately, this will all go to controlling my PCOS problem which is the actual challenge. The running target is still on though. I still am targetting to run the whole of 3km without stopping. I have started running again since the past 2 days.. at the office gym *sheepish grin* I feel like I sold-out..but it's a practical solution.. self-reminder: run outside on weekends!
Eating right is another target.. so that too will take center stage from now onwards. Proud to say that the past month, I didn't eat out so much. Mostly home-cooked meals ... heheh! Good for the body and also easy on my bank account :D
2. Financial health: it's getting better now.. but still lots of self-education and self-discipline needed. Hahah!
3. The on-going, never-ending MSc. : It's been 3 years!!! Need I say more?
Those are the 3 main things that this blog will try to address. So perhaps.. besides the original Vanishing Act mission, there would be some other stuff on this blog , if time permits.. lol!
Friday, June 26, 2009
Hovering..
In life we have to have the courage to begin again and again and again. And for everything that was destroyed or demolished there will be a phase of renewal and rebuilding. Stronger, wiser, calmer, more defined ;D
It's been too comfortable for too long, anyways..
So while it's still crumbling..I say, let's shake it up!! Shake it all up!!
And let the base be revealed. I'm positive that I'll like what I'll see. Different from before, defo.. additional features, given.. some lost, chipped parts? Quite likely..
In the meantime, I'll just hover in place and entertain all of these lessons that are surfacing in droves..
wait..wait.. will u all line up?? take a number, please???? yes , alright..lesson #1 .. u can speak now ...
It's been too comfortable for too long, anyways..
So while it's still crumbling..I say, let's shake it up!! Shake it all up!!
And let the base be revealed. I'm positive that I'll like what I'll see. Different from before, defo.. additional features, given.. some lost, chipped parts? Quite likely..
In the meantime, I'll just hover in place and entertain all of these lessons that are surfacing in droves..
wait..wait.. will u all line up?? take a number, please???? yes , alright..lesson #1 .. u can speak now ...
Friday, June 19, 2009
Rubbles again..
rubbles..rubbles.. rubbles..
it would be interesting to see what would be left intact this time ;)
rubbles..rubbles.. rubbles..
which are genuine, which are not? this is the test
rubbles..rubbles.. rubbles..
don't worry.. it's part of the journey..
rubbles..rubbles.. rubbles..
it would be interesting to see what would be left intact this time ;)
rubbles..rubbles.. rubbles..
which are genuine, which are not? this is the test
rubbles..rubbles.. rubbles..
don't worry.. it's part of the journey..
rubbles..rubbles.. rubbles..
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Return of the Muse..
There'll be a point in life where you'll realize that you are no longer the person you once were. An internal shift that surpassed all the physicals. Sure, you are still at the same place, on the same journey, probably even doing some of the same things.. and would still look the same, of course.. yet, internally, you are different.
And you don't really know what the turning point was.. and actually, it doesn't really matter.
Good thing is, you know that you have gone through one phase and is know in another. And that you have learnt what you needed to learn before..hopefully.. Maybe, just maybe.. in some aspects you are a little bit wiser.. Hopefully :D
The interesting part is.. you can still recognize some of the signs. The feeling that there will be more lessons to learn. Lessons that you don't feel quite equipped to handle.. .. yet somehow, I understand.. and I hope I understood it right.. that these things are only presented to you when you are ready to handle it..
So help me God ..
And you don't really know what the turning point was.. and actually, it doesn't really matter.
Good thing is, you know that you have gone through one phase and is know in another. And that you have learnt what you needed to learn before..hopefully.. Maybe, just maybe.. in some aspects you are a little bit wiser.. Hopefully :D
The interesting part is.. you can still recognize some of the signs. The feeling that there will be more lessons to learn. Lessons that you don't feel quite equipped to handle.. .. yet somehow, I understand.. and I hope I understood it right.. that these things are only presented to you when you are ready to handle it..
So help me God ..
Friday, April 17, 2009
Something I've almost forgotten..
The Serenity Prayer..
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can;and wisdom to know the difference.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can;and wisdom to know the difference.
